Friends

Bismillah.

It's been a while.
But today rather than sharing, it's a ponder of mine.

Friendship.
All of us have at least a friend.
I am not a good friend. Let alone a great one.
I hardly remember and forgot my friends' birthday.
I don't communicate well.
I don't know well how to start and heat-up a conversation.

In college, I was too occupied with work and 'responsibilities' (and Arashi) that I forgot many of my friends.
Maybe I have a few close friends, but only a few.
Now? I don't know whether I am still their close and best-friend anymore.

Especially now I am married.
I don't blame marriage.
It is just that I am wondering what should I do now...

Yes, life is a journey of different phases.
People come and go.
and love among humans is a gift from Allah s.w.t.
I understand that.
But I am still wondering what are....
My weakness
My mistakes
My inappropriateness
and My words that hurt and disrespectful

And I just want to say, I am SORRY for not being a good friend.